Shitty People

Hi there! Been a minute.

Welcome to my diary... but I am sharing it today because it's important and it has changed the current state of my life.

I'm jumping right in, so stick around if you choose.

Also, It's not that I have a "potty mouth" per say, It's just...

Life is always going to be full of shitty people. Always. But I just recently had this epiphany... I don't have to live a life full of shitty people.

This gets tricky when said "shitty people" are people that you didn't always think were that. It's complicated, horrible, and devastating to have to classify them as that once they become toxic in your life. But what is worse, losing people that were once important, or letting these people poison the well of you life? 

I have a hard time relating with the "once important" side of this coin, because I have been so lucky with the people in my life. I am not one who has had to filter out too many friends, and I haven't often been a friend that filters out. So when this does happen, it is world shattering for me. But, it's also humbling, and makes me even closer with the consistently beautiful friends I have. 

The reality of my life the last eight or so months has been that I have been so disappointed by people who have always in some way disappointed me, and then I am shocked when it happens a final and horrible time. That's on me, that's my fault... Being a shitty person is on you, that's your fault.

And let me specify, these words aren't to hurt anyone or make a point. It's to finally, and publicly, push that fact that we don't have to feel obligated to be abused by anyone just because at one point we really loved them. Love doesn't look like that. Love, of any kind, should be thoughtful, honest, and sensitive. The moment it isn't, is the moment you should really consider what role this relationship has in your life, and follow up. Don't allow it to be a negative role anymore. Don't allow someone to treat you like a human Jenga game; pulling block after block from you, until you inevitably come crashing down.

Surround yourself with the people that will build those blocks up and play again.
That's all I got.